Well I have not blogged for a few weeks, and now that it has come to the end of my first ever year at uni, and I am sat here.. doing pretty much nothing... I think now is a good time for a new post :)
Hasn't time gone fast!!
When I first started this page on Blogger, I was anticipating my A-level results, worrying about if I would get into Uni and if I didn't, what would I do? and if I do get in.. what would it be like? So many questions running through my mind... I was pretty much ready to leave home and start a new life somewhere else and start uni.... however I had only recently turned 18 when moving to uni, and had only just begun to experience life out on the town, in which I re-met people I once knew at secondary school, and created some strong bonds... which when the date of moving up to Derby came... I begun to not want to go... Which is most likely why for the first 3 months I was extremely unhappy. Reflecting back on my first years experience, and re reading posts... I have come on a very long winding journey, and have experienced situations I never thought I would have to go through alone, as well as discover that as a person I can be strong... who knows if it is a good thing to be able to put on a happy front and then be crashing inside, but being away from every security it is how I have learnt to deal with things. To be honest.. there are a load of things I would have done differently if I had the chance to... but what is done is done. I am glad that I have met the people I have, and am friends with the people I am friends with, because they are all incredible, and I would not change them for the world. <3
(I thought when writing this post some things wouldn't be the way they are right now.... but I guess there is another life lesson for you all... sometimes the little things and the petty arguments, mean a great deal more to some people than they do to you... and even when trying to not let it get in the way of a friendship... they just don't want to know.... all you can do then is to hope they come around, and everything will be back to normal....)
I was worried a lot about not doing well within actual Uni work, and am so glad that I have done okay, and have actually learnt and enjoyed it, instead of hating it and not understanding or knowing it all already.
I have missed home a lot since being at Uni, and in most of my posts it is obvious that I have... but I am glad that I didn't give up... and I kept on trekking through. As much as I missed the comforts and security's back home, having the opportunity to be able to create my own away from home, has been well worth while. I did not realise how much I would miss my little sister annoying the hell out of me, my mum being all over protective, and my dad being slightly awkward around me, and just being happy just sitting there not saying anything, but in fact the things I was dying to get away from, where the things I missed the most.... not having my little sister to annoy me by borrowing all my clothes, felt uneasy, not having my mum constantly ask where I am going, was strange, and to not have my dad rushing around not having time to speak, felt a little empty. But now there the things I smile and am happy about when I am home. :)
This first year even though half of it has been difficult, the other half has been AMAZING!
Sooo many amazing nights out, sooo many chilled days with people!
Just hope that second year will be twice as good! :)
The exams that I have just recently sat, have been tough and I am hoping that I have passed them all but......
Untill that post ;)
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