I'm not a perfect, nor good Christian.... sometimes I don't even class myself as one... but I am going to blog about my faith in this post... even though it is most likely going to be trolled upon by people... but I have been inspired by my friend Angela.. who blogs about her faith openly on facebook... and also who cares if some people think your totally nuts... everyone has there own beliefs... and it is a good thing to understand and respect them... well that's what I reckon anyway.
So if your going to give me hate for writing about this, then stop reading :)
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For anyone who actually knows what I am like....... they would most likely laugh at me for saying I am religious.... I know I have sinned alot.... but not in the way where I have gone out and killed someone..... just in the way of gone out and got drunk.... alot... etc.... but in my own view (in which alot of people think is wrong) I do not think that the bible that is written, works for the modern world that we live in today.... in which is why I have decided that instead of to take it word by word, to adapt it into the modern world that we live in today. Most religious people, and most people's thoughts about religious people are that they are strict and that they follow everything in there religion to the T etc.... but I don't think religion should be like that... I think that as long as you have faith that God is there, and to trust in him to give you opportunities, strengths and a life plan, and you show him your thankful for it all, as well as don't sin in the way of killing, hurting people and just doing nasty things, then surely that should be good enough?
In a way I am confused with what I believe in, as there are sooo many different religions and cultures out there, so many different names for the one "thing" that is helping to guide us, but then in a way I am not, I know what I truly believe in, I just don't really categorize myself as such.
I feel as though there is something... wherever that something is called God or not.... I feel as though there is something guiding me through life, and helping me through situations..... and to be honest, having that feeling, is comforting, to know that even if you are feeling so beaten down, there is someone there looking over you, and making sure things will be okay. I believe that God has given us all a path, and things that happen, will happen for a reason, in which we as individuals will analysis for ourselves.
I will admit now, I do pray everyday, because I believe that it is a way to show my trust and loyalty to God, and my own little faith.
Some people may say that there is no God, and that it is unfair if there is one because he causes so much pain in other parts of the world... and fair enough to them who think that, I respect what they believe in.... but at the end of the day, I don't believe that...... yeah there are some tragic events occurring in the world, but that does not mean God is not trying to help.... because with good comes evil, and as so I also believe there is some sort of Devil who tempts us, who is the reason why bad things happen. Unfair I know.
I feel that believing in God for me is helpful, and the thought makes me feel safe, even though there is bad out there, I have hope.
I do though understand why people would choose not to believe in it, due to all new scientific evidence and such.... and ironic as it is... I do also believe in the big bang and all that jazz.... but I believe that God made that all happen? Some of you who are reading this may be like "WHAT THE F**K?" but its what I believe.. and troll on it all you like..
To summarise, even though some people strongly disagree, I know within my heart that there is something out there helping, and guiding us. With a bit of faith and trust, things will be okay. Maybe I believe in all of it because I am scared and insecure? but either way believing in it, helps me alot and has helped me alot in the past.
Sooo I'm going to end my entry to this blog here, in the knowledge that there may be some more in depth entries regarding the subject. :)
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Saturday 28 May 2011
Monday 16 May 2011
The end comes.... time to prepare for a new start
Well I have not blogged for a few weeks, and now that it has come to the end of my first ever year at uni, and I am sat here.. doing pretty much nothing... I think now is a good time for a new post :)
Hasn't time gone fast!!
When I first started this page on Blogger, I was anticipating my A-level results, worrying about if I would get into Uni and if I didn't, what would I do? and if I do get in.. what would it be like? So many questions running through my mind... I was pretty much ready to leave home and start a new life somewhere else and start uni.... however I had only recently turned 18 when moving to uni, and had only just begun to experience life out on the town, in which I re-met people I once knew at secondary school, and created some strong bonds... which when the date of moving up to Derby came... I begun to not want to go... Which is most likely why for the first 3 months I was extremely unhappy. Reflecting back on my first years experience, and re reading posts... I have come on a very long winding journey, and have experienced situations I never thought I would have to go through alone, as well as discover that as a person I can be strong... who knows if it is a good thing to be able to put on a happy front and then be crashing inside, but being away from every security it is how I have learnt to deal with things. To be honest.. there are a load of things I would have done differently if I had the chance to... but what is done is done. I am glad that I have met the people I have, and am friends with the people I am friends with, because they are all incredible, and I would not change them for the world. <3
(I thought when writing this post some things wouldn't be the way they are right now.... but I guess there is another life lesson for you all... sometimes the little things and the petty arguments, mean a great deal more to some people than they do to you... and even when trying to not let it get in the way of a friendship... they just don't want to know.... all you can do then is to hope they come around, and everything will be back to normal....)
I was worried a lot about not doing well within actual Uni work, and am so glad that I have done okay, and have actually learnt and enjoyed it, instead of hating it and not understanding or knowing it all already.
I have missed home a lot since being at Uni, and in most of my posts it is obvious that I have... but I am glad that I didn't give up... and I kept on trekking through. As much as I missed the comforts and security's back home, having the opportunity to be able to create my own away from home, has been well worth while. I did not realise how much I would miss my little sister annoying the hell out of me, my mum being all over protective, and my dad being slightly awkward around me, and just being happy just sitting there not saying anything, but in fact the things I was dying to get away from, where the things I missed the most.... not having my little sister to annoy me by borrowing all my clothes, felt uneasy, not having my mum constantly ask where I am going, was strange, and to not have my dad rushing around not having time to speak, felt a little empty. But now there the things I smile and am happy about when I am home. :)
This first year even though half of it has been difficult, the other half has been AMAZING!
Sooo many amazing nights out, sooo many chilled days with people!
Just hope that second year will be twice as good! :)
The exams that I have just recently sat, have been tough and I am hoping that I have passed them all but......
Untill that post ;)
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Hasn't time gone fast!!
When I first started this page on Blogger, I was anticipating my A-level results, worrying about if I would get into Uni and if I didn't, what would I do? and if I do get in.. what would it be like? So many questions running through my mind... I was pretty much ready to leave home and start a new life somewhere else and start uni.... however I had only recently turned 18 when moving to uni, and had only just begun to experience life out on the town, in which I re-met people I once knew at secondary school, and created some strong bonds... which when the date of moving up to Derby came... I begun to not want to go... Which is most likely why for the first 3 months I was extremely unhappy. Reflecting back on my first years experience, and re reading posts... I have come on a very long winding journey, and have experienced situations I never thought I would have to go through alone, as well as discover that as a person I can be strong... who knows if it is a good thing to be able to put on a happy front and then be crashing inside, but being away from every security it is how I have learnt to deal with things. To be honest.. there are a load of things I would have done differently if I had the chance to... but what is done is done. I am glad that I have met the people I have, and am friends with the people I am friends with, because they are all incredible, and I would not change them for the world. <3
(I thought when writing this post some things wouldn't be the way they are right now.... but I guess there is another life lesson for you all... sometimes the little things and the petty arguments, mean a great deal more to some people than they do to you... and even when trying to not let it get in the way of a friendship... they just don't want to know.... all you can do then is to hope they come around, and everything will be back to normal....)
I was worried a lot about not doing well within actual Uni work, and am so glad that I have done okay, and have actually learnt and enjoyed it, instead of hating it and not understanding or knowing it all already.
I have missed home a lot since being at Uni, and in most of my posts it is obvious that I have... but I am glad that I didn't give up... and I kept on trekking through. As much as I missed the comforts and security's back home, having the opportunity to be able to create my own away from home, has been well worth while. I did not realise how much I would miss my little sister annoying the hell out of me, my mum being all over protective, and my dad being slightly awkward around me, and just being happy just sitting there not saying anything, but in fact the things I was dying to get away from, where the things I missed the most.... not having my little sister to annoy me by borrowing all my clothes, felt uneasy, not having my mum constantly ask where I am going, was strange, and to not have my dad rushing around not having time to speak, felt a little empty. But now there the things I smile and am happy about when I am home. :)
This first year even though half of it has been difficult, the other half has been AMAZING!
Sooo many amazing nights out, sooo many chilled days with people!
Just hope that second year will be twice as good! :)
The exams that I have just recently sat, have been tough and I am hoping that I have passed them all but......
Untill that post ;)
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