If I stand too close I might fall in
But if I’m too far gone I’ll never win
If you believe in me I might just want to spend some time with you again
I’m afraid I tend to disappear into an anxious state when you draw near
There is no reasoning it’s quite a silly thing
But it’s the way I’ve been for years
So I will understand if you don’t stay
They say I’m great at first but then the magic fades
Into an awful you of dismal views and pessimistic attitude
All this distance years of sweet resistance
Swirling over head like angry clouds of discontent
I have apologised a billion times
When I’ve gone off the wall like Busta Rhymes
And pulled a stupid stunt that left you thinking there
was something wrong with me you’ve thrown a few choice phrases at my way
And I’ve ignored them all as best I could
Except that tiny bit how I just can’t commit
There is some truth in what you say
All this distance years of sweet resistance
Swirling over head like angry clouds of discontent
If I stand too close I might fall in
But if I’m too far gone I’ll never win
If you believe in I might just want to spend some time with you again
I spent some time with you again
If I stand too close I might fall in
But if I’m too far gone I’ll never win
If you believe in me I might just want to spend some time with you again
Monday 21 February 2011
Thursday 3 February 2011
It follows me everywhere..!!
THIS SONG...
Follows me everywhere i go... no lie or exaggeration!
I wouldn't mind so much if it didn't have such a sad connection to it..
First heard this song sitting in Airkixs in xscape... when me and Chanita decided to go and watch people sky dive inside... which was a good day... but him... the guy who was in control of the air pressure... caught my eye, we kept giving each other looks.... and then Chanita told me i should go up and talk to him... as there was a window to the room he was in... I plucked up the courage to go and speak to him.... even though i had no idea what to say... he saw me coming and the first thing that came to my head after saying hey was "do you need any experience to work here".... most properly the stupidest thing ever to say to the most gorgeous guy ever! After he spoke, i had no idea what he said, just that his eyes made me feel things I had never felt before. Then i went and sat with Chanita, who at this point was in tears of laughter at what I had said... we decided we had spent enough time in there and we should move on... but the thought of just leaving, without knowing if i would see this guy again did not make any sense... so out of pure adrenalin, got some paper went back up to him... asked shyly if he had a pen I could borrow, wrote down my number with the words "text me sometime" and gave it to him.... It was a long shot... he was absolutely GORGEOUS!! but 5 minutes later i got a text from him.
Since from then we txted every day... and learnt more and more about each other, and met up quite a bit.
It was amazing. I would go see him at Airkixs (where the song above would always be playing) and we would chat, and then would meet up after he had finished work.. as he didn't live in Milton Keynes we only saw each other when he was working. Which was okay. Fell for him hard!!!
But as a year passed, things got tense, and we began arguing alot, and he got into hard times. His mood would flip instantly, and would say really hurtful things. Until we had a massive fall out, and I deleted his number, in the past we have had massive arguments but this one was different, this had to be the end of it all and I told myself to get over him. He was amazing, had the most gorgeous eyes, made me laugh and feel safe... but sometimes you just have to let the things that make you happy go... even if sometimes the person that makes you happy may occasionally flip and be the most horrible person ever. We have spoken once since the massive fight.. but that's it.
This song, always reminds me of him, and all the memories... and everywhere i go, its always there, where if a band covers it at a gig, its a track on CD in a music experiment, or someone posts it onto facebook. On the plus side though it will always remind me of him, even if it does make me sad, as well as knowing that even if you fall for someone as much as i did, over time and with alot of determination you can get over something as big and intense as what me and him had.
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Follows me everywhere i go... no lie or exaggeration!
I wouldn't mind so much if it didn't have such a sad connection to it..
First heard this song sitting in Airkixs in xscape... when me and Chanita decided to go and watch people sky dive inside... which was a good day... but him... the guy who was in control of the air pressure... caught my eye, we kept giving each other looks.... and then Chanita told me i should go up and talk to him... as there was a window to the room he was in... I plucked up the courage to go and speak to him.... even though i had no idea what to say... he saw me coming and the first thing that came to my head after saying hey was "do you need any experience to work here".... most properly the stupidest thing ever to say to the most gorgeous guy ever! After he spoke, i had no idea what he said, just that his eyes made me feel things I had never felt before. Then i went and sat with Chanita, who at this point was in tears of laughter at what I had said... we decided we had spent enough time in there and we should move on... but the thought of just leaving, without knowing if i would see this guy again did not make any sense... so out of pure adrenalin, got some paper went back up to him... asked shyly if he had a pen I could borrow, wrote down my number with the words "text me sometime" and gave it to him.... It was a long shot... he was absolutely GORGEOUS!! but 5 minutes later i got a text from him.
Since from then we txted every day... and learnt more and more about each other, and met up quite a bit.
It was amazing. I would go see him at Airkixs (where the song above would always be playing) and we would chat, and then would meet up after he had finished work.. as he didn't live in Milton Keynes we only saw each other when he was working. Which was okay. Fell for him hard!!!
But as a year passed, things got tense, and we began arguing alot, and he got into hard times. His mood would flip instantly, and would say really hurtful things. Until we had a massive fall out, and I deleted his number, in the past we have had massive arguments but this one was different, this had to be the end of it all and I told myself to get over him. He was amazing, had the most gorgeous eyes, made me laugh and feel safe... but sometimes you just have to let the things that make you happy go... even if sometimes the person that makes you happy may occasionally flip and be the most horrible person ever. We have spoken once since the massive fight.. but that's it.
This song, always reminds me of him, and all the memories... and everywhere i go, its always there, where if a band covers it at a gig, its a track on CD in a music experiment, or someone posts it onto facebook. On the plus side though it will always remind me of him, even if it does make me sad, as well as knowing that even if you fall for someone as much as i did, over time and with alot of determination you can get over something as big and intense as what me and him had.
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